Love this tool.
“I’ll never forget the day Marilyn and I were walking around New York City, just having a stroll on a nice day. She loved New York because no one bothered her there like they did in Hollywood, she could put on her plain-jane clothes and no one would notice her. She loved that. So as we we’re walking down Broadway, she turns to me and says ‘Do you want to see me become her?’ I didn’t know what she meant but I just said ‘Yes’- and then I saw it. I don’t know how to explain what she did because it was so very subtle, but she turned something on within herself that was almost like magic. And suddenly cars were slowing and people were turning their heads and stopping to stare. They were recognizing that this was Marilyn Monroe as if she pulled off a mask or something, even though a second ago nobody noticed her. I had never seen anything like it before.”
- Amy Greene, wife of Marilyn’s personal photographer Milton Greene
So. Since I was last on here a hell of a lot has changed.
I’ve done 3 new acting jobs. Got a job at the palace theatre. Found someone who I just cannot take my mind off. Fell into a ridiculous amount of love. And now I’m all happy again.
I’ve decided, I don’t really like being single. It was boring. But I’ve found someone who understands my career and who is in the same career I’m in which make life a lot easier.
I didn’t think I’d be this happy with someone again, but I’m (and no offense) happier. Will makes me laugh every single day, he’s just as stubborn as me and he’s crazier than me. He has a hilarious and wonderful family who’ve looked after me over Christmas. He’s so handsome I can’t even explain. I just got very lucky I suppose.
So 2013 was quite a success, and now I intend to make 2014 the most successful. Time to work harder. Get myself more credits. Career. Career. Career.
All in all. Don’t worry be happy now.
It’s all well and good pretending everything is okay.
But after a while you start to realise that things are missing. Gone. The family I had, the two children I had, the big beautiful house we were going to work hard for, the amazing wedding, the crazy engagement party, the countries we were going to visit, the Christmas, birthday, valentines days… Gone. Vanished out of thin air.
Falling out of love is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Yet it was so easy to do.
Now it’s realising I don’t have that someone that I can depend on. Now that someone is me, and the way I feel right now, I’m the least dependable person.
But I must stay positive and remember that the reasons for this outweigh negativity and sadness by a country mile. Careers, ambitions the thing I love above most is the career I’ve chosen, and the career you’ve chosen and if they weren’t meant to mould, then we can find someone’s who do. We must remember that. Above anything. Cut happy strings, don’t try and knot bad ones together.
I hate being the tosser that rights stuff like this. But I’m either going to burst or scream or run.
I’m going to look back on this and vomit one day. But right now I thank god I’ve something to write on.