On the person who thought you were
-the most amazing
-the most beautiful
-the most talented
-the most trendy
-the most cool
-the one they could have spent the rest of their life with
-and everything else important
You are ridiculous. Keep them. They are your soulmate. You’ll find no one better. Trust me. I’ve learned the hard way.
It’s all well and good pretending everything is okay.
But after a while you start to realise that things are missing. Gone. The family I had, the two children I had, the big beautiful house we were going to work hard for, the amazing wedding, the crazy engagement party, the countries we were going to visit, the Christmas, birthday, valentines days… Gone. Vanished out of thin air.
Falling out of love is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Yet it was so easy to do.
Now it’s realising I don’t have that someone that I can depend on. Now that someone is me, and the way I feel right now, I’m the least dependable person.
But I must stay positive and remember that the reasons for this outweigh negativity and sadness by a country mile. Careers, ambitions the thing I love above most is the career I’ve chosen, and the career you’ve chosen and if they weren’t meant to mould, then we can find someone’s who do. We must remember that. Above anything. Cut happy strings, don’t try and knot bad ones together.
I hate being the tosser that rights stuff like this. But I’m either going to burst or scream or run.
I’m going to look back on this and vomit one day. But right now I thank god I’ve something to write on.
I hear the train a comin’
It’s rolling round the bend
And I ain’t seen the sunshine since I don’t know when,
I’m stuck in Folsom prison, and time keeps draggin’ on
But that train keeps a rollin’ on down to San Antone..
When I was just a baby my mama told me. Son,
Always be a good boy, don’t…